Yo. There was something really cool this Friday in the context of the 24/7 prayer. A speaker named Becky Tirabassi talked about what holds revival back. Revival is pretty much constant obedience to the Spirit of God, so revival can't come to this campus until it comes to the body of Christ. This is why it is so important that the church gets cleaned up. So much of the church is no different from the world, especially in terms of sexual immorality.
James5:16 Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.
So we spent some time confessing our sins before God. He moved me to make a public confession of my sins of lust. More specifcally, not being pure with my eyes, and even looking at porn.
John 3:20-21 Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light so that it may be seen plainly what what he has done has been done by God.
So I just wanted to get it out into the wide open. I have shared this with a few others before, but right now I just want to be completely transparent. I haven't done this before because I thought that I could bear the struggle on my own. And I might stand strong for a few weeks, a few months, maybe even a whole semester, and then stumble and fall again. And each time I would say to myself "This is the last time!" So I would confess to God and try to go on as though nothing had happened.
I'm sick of it. I HATE this sin! I can't express enough my deep, seething, undying, profound, burning, passionate hatred for this. I refuse to let it shame me anymore. I want everyone to know that I crucifying my flesh and I am not going back.
Some of you guys reading this have had, or are having the same problem. Me and Shawn are in the process of putting together a group to fight the evils of sexual immorality. Tentatively called the Elite Covenant of Spartans, (the name isn't final. It was just the manliest thing I could come up with on such short notice.) we intend to be open with each other and fight together as brothers.
Satan is a pimp. Don't be his ho. If you are struggling, talk to me as someone who understands. God has freed me, and I'm not going back. He will free you too.
Romans 6:14 For sin shall not be your master, for you are not under the law, but under grace.